I felt so sad … totally disappointed. Sigh .. blog ah blog, here’s the only place everything I’ve something to express but don’t know where to do it. aaahhhhh! Oh Lord, I don’t know why I felt this saddening feeling and why in the first place I’ve such persistence .. it has nothing to do with me honestly and I even have to sacrifice so much to make it happen so I can be like don’t bother about it just like the other officer .. why? Mmm .. hahaa when I’m typing this, God You brought to my remembrance what You told me yesterday, “The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?” You’ve place this burden upon me, this burning desire and compassion at times I can’t even explain the commitment I have, it just flows out.
Of course, so much I hope that this performance could happen but like You who has given everyone of us a freedom of choice, same to them, they choose and make their decision. It’s sad to see one misses his opportunity to do something different, something they could never imagine of doing but … at times we are just too comfortable in our comfort zone that we don’t wanna try stepping out. Sigh … God .. mmm still trust in You and will continue to hope in You and believe it will happen only if I don’t lose heart. Next year, next year!!
